of me and a girl that was once special to me....

lately she's been on my mind and I feel like I should mention her...

In the begining of 8th grade I met a girl,named Laura,she didn't seem so special to me at all,

I was wrong

one day in 1st period the two of us started talking,
then everyday we would talk...
eventually the two of us becae friends and I got to know her better everyday
then one day she had to move seats,I still talked to her,just not as much as before...

I was talking to a friend of mine,(who was a close friend of her's) and everyday I'd say "Damn dude...I miss talking to Laura" until one day,my friend finally said to me,"dude....I think you like her"

the thought of me liking some girl was pretty much bull to me,cause at the time I had been thinking that relationships are a waste of time

I was wrong again....

one day I couldn't take it anymore and I just asked her out,and unfortunatle she said no....

though luckily for me,it didn't end there,I had managed to get her e-mail and we would still talk everyday...and we actually got closer

more ups and downs would ensue,sometimes she'd encourage me,and sometimes there'd be days where I embarased her,but we were still friends,and she would say hi to me and smile

but then the end of the year came....

I had been hearing her saying some things about me...and they weren't good....I had to finally ask her what she truly felt about me.....

she told me her true feelings and she cared about me as a friend....but she just couldn't see me the way I saw her

last day came,along with the last dance...

I went with my friends as one last time we'd all be together,and Laura was there with her friends...since it was the last time she would see them since she was going to a different high school.....

I had asked her to dance and we did,we had a godd time and afterwards we hugged.....then while I was waitong outside for my ride I could see her driving away.....

we waved each other good bye and it was the last time we saw each other.....

it was over summer vacation I relized I truly loved her,and I had a lot to tink about,y=thanks to her I saw there was more to life than I could see,and that maube a relationship with a special someone may really be worth it.....

now its high school and I thought I was finally over her,but lately I've been seeing girls who look like her ans sound like her....plus her cousin is in one of my classes and everytime she looks at me a oart of me dies inside.....

I know mosst of you may not read this but I have to vent somewhere.....

thank you to all who actually read this

The TAUfanatic